I find myself every day. The smallest pieces click together more than not, and make me stronger.
I am blessed for the things I do have… and I am grateful everyday for the people in my life, whom I love.
I no longer believe that I cannot achieve my goals; it is simply all about what I will do to achieve them.
It is easier to have faith in myself when I know I am doing whatever I can to move forward, and not wasting time on things that don’t matter.
It doesn’t always go as planned (it never does), but eventually I always get there.
My mother has often told me that I have a way about me, in which I do almost everything the opposite of what most people will do; but I always get it done; it’s usually better than most would do it.
I agree with this fact fully because I know it is true. I think it’s just about the level of effort I choose to put in.
No effort equals nothing but existence and sadness, and I’m not satisfied with that kind of life anymore, because that’s not who I am anymore, or how I want my life to be.
I have never really fought for much of anything but my disease, and nurturing it.
I don’t want to be remembered, as the girl who drank her life away. I don’t want to end up dead from alcoholism like my Uncle Mike.
I know I have more to offer the world than that.
I am glad that I can say now, that I am NOT my disease, and every day of my life, from now on, I plan to prove it to MYSELF.
I am four months and two days sober today.
I’m still alive, and there is a reason for it.
I do know whatever happens, I have to remember I’m worth the good things, and the bad things don’t dictate my life anymore. I won’t and can’t let them.
My struggles in life, make it that much more satisfying to say that I am still here, and moving forward.
I don’t know if that makes sense to anyone but me, but it’s something I think is a miracle, and I don’t want to waste the time I have left.
I’m not giving up on a life of peace, and I’ll continue to fight for it daily.
Just thoughts on my mind today.
Kind of a hard week coming up for T and I, but it’ll be SO worth it for the both of us, in the end. Good vibes are appreciated.
I hope you all have a great weekend. 🙂
J.Rounds (c)2017 ~Peaces of ME