It’s one of those days for me, where even the tiniest steps forward, mean something.
I’m working on my patience, and self-love; those are both processes that have been harder for me to do… The fact that I am doing well, and staying calm despite my anxiety today, is a really positive thing for me; for sure.
I haven’t called myself a fucking idiot today, at all.
Thank you Dr.Phil…lol. Again.
The only thing I can do today is take it as it comes, and not talk down to myself or pop off, when I get frustrated. Because I am frustrated, and I have been popping off.
It’s technically a vacation of sorts that I’m on with T.
It hasn’t much felt like that at all for either of us, but I am still grateful that we are here together.
One thing I know for sure, is that I’m a master of making plans for my life, and then doing the chicken shit and never following through on them…or doing the exact opposite of the plan.
I don’t want to do that anymore.
I’m afraid to fail, but I’m more afraid of not TRYING to succeed at this point.
I hope that six months from now, I will be in a much better, financial state and much more cynical- free as well.
I’m sober, and the weight and bullshit of the world, can only affect me, if I let it.
Today I’m not going to let it, because I know that I am worthy, and can be successful in life; even though my story doesn’t fit the box.
J.Rounds ©2017 ~Peaces of ME