Today I’m focusing on focusing.
One of my biggest issues is DOING, because I’m easily distracted. I have to focus on focusing, or I won’t get anything done.
I don’t know why I’m like that; I am also changing it day by day with actions; because I don’t like that I’m like that. I’m sure it will continue to get better, if I keep moving forward and trying every day.
People do it all the time. I’m not special in that regard. I get what I put in.
I’m happy to be feeling generally positive. A little anxious, but it’s normal. A lot to do to get to where I want to be with my life; and where I want to be with T, and our life together.
There doesn’t seem to be enough time to do it all.
Daily I work on the patience part of it, as well. It can be hard, but I know that change and goals take time to come to fruition. I can’t compare my time line to others.
Today is going to be a day that I will have to work at anyways; I cannot lie. I’m fine with that because it feels good to work…it’s my side projects; but I have a lot on my mind this morning as well…so in that way too, I will have to work.
I’m am going outside, and I’m going to enjoy the sun and take photos 🙂
I don’t know where I’m going with my photography; but I do know that I have the drive to make it a permanent extension of who I am as a person; in many regards.
My issue has always been financial (lack of). Also focus. (Focused on wrong things). Also time management. Also thinking I couldn’t do it. Not doing it.
I have to focus always….even on my days off…. to get to where I need to be, for me.
I’m just glad I can still be positive, and I have the motivation to try to spread that positivity. I have the belief in myself now, that I never did before.
Today I am spreading more than usual positivity on myself….because I need it 🙂
I’m admitting it fully because that’s OK.
I am eleven months, and eight days sober; and very grateful for that. I am grateful for my family and for T and for my friends that never left me, and believe in me.
That is a GOOD thing.
J.Rounds ©2018 ~Peaces of ME