Pretty sure it’s Tuesday, and the fact that I had to think about that is sad; still…

My mood is better today.

I can’t expect to feel positive all the time, when there are real problems I’m dealing with.

I’m not afraid anymore to say when I feel like shit inside, and I guess that is one good thing.  

Truth be told, I have no reason to trust anybody; or care. 

I think that’s a rather fucked up and selfish way of looking at things though; so I’m again looking on the bright side….because I actually hate feeling shitty…I don’t know if any of you have realized this by now, or not. I know it may be hard at points to tell.

If I could change one thing about myself, it would be my pessimism on life in general.

I work on it daily to control it; because I know that my attitude, directly affects my whole day, and life. Lately I’ve been failing.

It is still hard to stop up the leaks in my heart; for valid reasons that will always suck.

For that, I wish there were a solid cure that worked…

Faith seems to be the only option to slow it down.

Day 142 on the sober count; keeping it real, like always.

Love yourself.

J.Rounds ©2017 ~Peaces of ME

Freedom on a Friday.

I live for moments of revelation, motivation, strength, and peace.

This has been a productive Friday for me so far, consisting of these moments…And it’s not over yet.

Supplies are on the list for tomorrow for some new projects I want to create; also researching some sites for future shoots. I have a lot of work to do and I’m excited. I think this new Etsy store will be a great outlet for me, And put me on my way to where I want to be creative-wise; open me up a bit; maybe float me a little cash to pay a few bills.


I’ve made peace with some demons as well today, and bolted closed a door I should have, a long time ago. (although the key hole does remain)


Funny how things come sometimes; this wave of calm and clarity actually hit me when I was surfing Instagram this morning, of all places. 


I decided that the self-doubt I’ve been  struggling with, is getting to the end of it’s run. I’m not interested in negativity and doubting myself anymore. I’m not interested in wasting my life going nowhere anymore.


It can only make me happy to be happy, because that’s what being happy is about.


I can’t spend my time worrying about fitting a certain outline anymore, because I don’t fit one and I know it. I’m good with that finally. I’m just going to do my thing. 🙂 It’s only important if I’m happy in my life, and moving positively through it in the most constructive way possible for myself and the people I care about.

Certainly not putting this effort into things and people that keep me stuck in my head and uncertain any longer, ever again. I’m done with that; because I’m tired of doubting. I’m tired of doubting myself.

Enter clarity. Enter answers. Enter strength.

I’m not selfish for loving myself, every part of me, for who I am.  That’s not anything but good, if I want to feel fulfilled and happy in MYSELF. Because really, this is MY life, not anybody else’s ,and I decided that I’m not so bad. 

Even though I know I will still have some shit days, and I know there will be challenges (reality), I’m getting off of my pity party as a whole, so I can move to the next phase of my life.

I feel good about myself as a person today, and that’s enough to keep me going until I get to tomorrow.

RIDE OR DIE.

Today I finally feel like I have nothing to prove to anyone, but myself, and that’s really freeing. I know I can only grow stronger with this mindset.

I’m excited to see what I can achieve with the new outlook And some solid effort.

I know for sure the journey into uncharted waters is about to begin again, and I intend to embrace and enjoy it THIS leg, every step of the way. 


Love yourself.

J. Rounds ©2017 ~Peaces of ME