Maybe…

Maybe it’s because it means more….

to struggle for things you need and want.

If there was no struggle, then there wouldn’t really be that much of a reward in the end.

It wouldn’t mean anything.

I don’t know if that’s exactly true; but it’s what I tell myself when I feel beside myself, and upside down. 

Just keep going.

Today I feel good enough, and there is reason to believe that it might just be a good day after all. 

I have faith.

T and I have decided to stay where we are for now, and to take this next month and really find a place that will suit us.

I believe that things and moments come to you when you really need them. 

I’m going to stop expecting, and start accepting. 

I think it can only help in the end. 

Love yourself.

J. Rounds ยฉ2017 ~Peaces of ME

July 25th, 2017… I’m 46 years old and not dead yet.ย 

We move first of the month. ๐Ÿ™‚

Where there’s a will, there’s a way ๐Ÿ™‚

I heard from my eldest daughter, and my mother sent a wonderful birthday card. T wrote me a beautiful song, and we met our goal. 

We are 121 days sober.

 We work for it every day. 

T says there are really no “buts” in happiness….

I agree fully. 

Happy 46th birthday to me. 

I’ve had WAY shittier ones for sure. 

Love yourself.

J.Rounds (c)2017 ~Peaces of ME

Because it’s MEANT to be…

This house T and I have been working towards getting…                                                 


150 bucks away from the goal!

My Birthday is tomorrow. 

This is last challenge in reaching a huge goal that’s been very arduous to get done, but will be worth everything to say I did it; simply because I didn’t think at first it was achievable. 

I haven’t sold my camera. I haven’t gotten one dime from anyone. 

It is true if you want something done, you have to do it yourself. T and I deserve this win, and $150 bucks from now, we are going to be able to say we did it all by ourselves, together. 

THAT is something that is worth it’s weight in gold.

My Birthday present to myself, is to make sure we meet this goal. 

I’ll be taking my camera off of Ebay, and selling it outright locally instead. There’s been no traffic as expected, and I don’t care, I’ll just pawn it. 

Either way it’s going to be a Happy Birthday for me; because tomorrow isn’t going to be any ordinary day at all. 

This I know for sure.

120 days on the wagon today, and counting.

I can definitely dig that ๐Ÿ™‚

Love yourself.
J.Rounds (c)2017 ~Peaces of ME

Reconsideration.ย 

I’ve decided to keep this blog going after all. It would be like turning my back on a part of myself that’s good; and that would just be stupid.

Two years of my life, today, on digital world view. As hard as it’s been….Finding yourself; ย in the midst of random strangers; is a good way to deal/heal fears, and is very freeing.

I reserve my right to make harmless, reversable, bipolar decisions.

………………………………………………..

I turned off and deactivated my social media accounts to focus on my goals.

I am 67 days sober.

There is a light in me again that grows stronger every single day.

I am grateful for the people in my life.

I realized that being afraid of failure, is keeping me from doing what I need to do to succeed.

I also realized that I can’t much do anything or get anything done, if I don’t do it.

Fear of failure is not an option for me any longer. It’s held me down for most of my life; and that’s just over now.

Love yourself.ย 

ย J.Rounds ยฉ2017 ~Peaces of ME

Since I’m Venting I Might As Well Own It

You know when things happen to you, and you’re like wtf?

This is one of those instances.

So I figure as long as I’m having one of those nights, I’d come clean about an article, that technically makes me a published model.

The chick in this article is ME.

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I was really pissed when I first happened upon it, because I was not asked for the image use, and did not want to be hooked to an article such as this. My reason that it was because it made me look weak, and I was going through major cyber bullying at the time this article was released… by many people.

NOW, I think the reason I was also irritated, is that the article related some to me.  How’s that for full circle.

I have so since gotten a full apology from the author of this article, as well as the publisher. I’m satisfied. 

Soon some things with my image will be changing. I’ve worked a long time to network and build myself and I’m ready to make the next move. It’s slow but sure.

I’ll be blogging at my other site tomorrow for the first time. I’ve waited this long for personal reasons, and people giving me issues.

Don’t stop. Because when you start to get somewhere, many want you too.

That’s their issue.

J. Rounds (c)2016 ~Peace of Me

The Here and the Now in my World

I enjoy anticipation but I’m impatient.

I’m a German Jew and I don’t practice any “technical” faith because I think organized religion for the most part is Bullshit, although I have the utmost respect for other people’s views on religion in general….just don’t try to Jesus me.

I’m flawed miserably and sometimes even hypocritical. Sometimes I’m a mess inside, even when I have a full face of make up on, and I seem to be in the best mood.

I’m not too sure sometimes if I’m worth knowing (even though I know those are only my demons fighting with themselves)

So what; I’m human.

Point is…I’m done with the downsizing of myself. Done with it. I’m thinking about these things tonight, because I again have met another goal, and I think it’s time to realize that the only one holding myself back is me.

Today; I was recognized for my writing and asked to join a team of bloggers on a website that is just starting but thriving ridiculously. I’m a contributing Blogger now.ย Here

I don’t know really how things happen; but I DO know when you don’t hold back, you succeed.

This is my foot in the door. I was ask to blog on this site. This is something that came to me based on my writing. I did it.
Another goal ๐Ÿ™‚ It’s possible to get hooked up with sources I’d need to advance in this field now, and a good opportunity to help others with my words.

I’m proud of myself, and happy.

I’m so happy. ๐Ÿ™‚

Love yourself.

J.Rounds (c)2016 ~Peaces of Me
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Good News in my world.

It’s crazy how things work out if you just keep applying yourself.

I met two goals today.  Getting a new computer is now possible for me and it’s based off of scholarship I submitted for last September.

I told myself if I got it, I would invest it in my education. Since I need a new computer in the worst way, that’s exactly what’s getting purchased.

I’m proud of myself for getting the scholarship, because I didn’t think I would get it. I submitted anyways, because I took the chance on myself that I was good enough, and I was. It’s a good feeling to have.

Funny how when you least expect it, a little piece will fall into place. It really is crazy how that seems to happen.

Good news is I’ll finally have a computer fast enough to get me through school and the immediate aftermath with a few simple upgrades.

I’m super stoked, and that doesn’t happen too much for me so I’m happy.

These are my small victories that mean something more to me than anyone even knows.

Love yourself.

J.Rounds ~Peaces of Me

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June 27, 2016

Even though you are scared shitless and don’t think anything is going to be O.K. at all right now; IT’S GOING TO BE O.K.; O.K.?!ย  Just believe it and make it so. You are a strong person and you can do anything you set your mind to.

You can do it. You have been through, and survived, worse things than this.

Love yourself.

J.Rounds 2016~Peaces of me

May 6th, 2016

Bills are paid, school is almost caught up, and I’m finally pulling out of this funk I was in.

I love the rain but it’s been a while with it now. I wish it was at least thundering. That’s my favorite.

Got to get some money together soon so I can do what I need to do to move forward. No idea, but has to be done.

Car and computer for school is next on list, also money for photos so I can start submitting pics to certain things. I have numerous t- shirt companies following me on instagram which is cool, and I think I might be able to get some exposure at least. There are many pinup groups that do charity work, and I’d like to get in on that for sure. That’s a goal. No reason I can’t.

Still writing ever single day. Still broke af, but grateful. Still going in July to see kids if allowed.

One day at a time.
I’m feeling hopeful today.

J.Rounds (c)2016 ~Peaces of Me

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