I think for me; learning to let go of the idea that I have to do everything just right, is something that’s strengthening me as a person.
It is a slower process than I would like.
I’m accepting the fact that there is no hard-core plan for how my life will go; and it will never be perfect.
What it can be, is inspiring. It can be worth it. It can mean something. It can be happy.
I don’t have to have a full plan in place; that’s not realistic anyways, with so many unknowns that go on every day.
I DO want to be; at my last breath; able to feel like it’s ok to go. That my life left a good mark on the world; that my children can be proud of the person I worked to become.
To not be afraid of the work it will take to get there.
Every day I try. Lately, I’m remembering that there are no limitations for my growth, except the ones I put on myself.
I will never be a cookie- cutter “normal” person. I will always have a passion and fire that people will misunderstand and a good percentage will not prefer. I will always go against the norm by nature and ask questions about life that most wouldn’t. I will always struggle with certain things. I will always wonder who runs the show; if anything does….because I’m going to the customer service desk if there is one…know it.
I will always seek the answers. I will always seek my truth.
I don’t know; but I think the fact that I can be positive mostly without trying; for longer periods of time than I used to be able to; is a very good thing.
Sobriety is my strength at this point. I know this.
The more you try, the easier it gets. It’s a fact with absolutely every, single thing in life that you choose to do.
The questions I ask myself about life; are what am I going to choose to try at?
The answers change sometimes; but the goal is always the same.
To truly love my life, and who I am. To live without regret, and fear of the unknown. To feel whole in my soul.
I feel stronger in myself, than I have ever felt in my life.
I am grateful.
Thank you for engaging in my story. I appreciate you.
J.Rounds ©2018 ~Peaces of ME