It’s probably one of the last nice days of the season; and I’m grateful for the hope I’ve been feeling lately.
It is Karter’s death anniversary; it’s been 9 years since he’s passed. He’d be 12 years old if he were alive today.
I, in the past, would often go into a shell for weeks around this time every year. It’s a positive sign that I feel no depression this year…only acceptance.
I know my son is OK now, wherever he is. I know he is with me every day. The pain I used to feel, has been replaced with understanding and strength.
I think realizing what is truly important in my life today, is Karter’s way of helping me know, that it’s ok to let go of the trauma I held for so long over his death.
I know that he was a gift; and that I can find comfort in the things that he taught me, and the bond we shared.
That’s a significant thing, and true progress.
I have the day off, and it’ll be spent doing things that are relaxing and needed. I can still hear the dogs barking though. Lol.
I have great concerns about what has been happening in the world lately, but I’m not going to focus on it for right now; because all it’ll do is make me anxious.
I’m going to take some pictures tonight, and hopefully T will come with.
We need some “US” time. I also want to release a balloon for my son.
Today I’m focusing on the positive side of life, and paying no attention to the negative rabble that always *seems to be around and trying to upset my good juju. No going back to that crap and nonsense ever again…only forward into happy.
I’m also killing myself with kindness; because it helps me to be kinder to others as well.
Try it; it works.
I am 191 days sober; or 6 months, seven days….and so is T.
Every day is a new day to be the person you were meant to be.
Rest in peace Karter Law Rounds. Momma loves you.❤❤❤
J.Rounds ©2017 ~Peaces ME