July 25th, 2017… I’m 46 years old and not dead yet. 

We move first of the month. 🙂

Where there’s a will, there’s a way 🙂

I heard from my eldest daughter, and my mother sent a wonderful birthday card. T wrote me a beautiful song, and we met our goal. 

We are 121 days sober.

 We work for it every day. 

T says there are really no “buts” in happiness….

I agree fully. 

Happy 46th birthday to me. 

I’ve had WAY shittier ones for sure. 

Love yourself.

J.Rounds (c)2017 ~Peaces of ME

What I want for my Birthday, is to get into this house…

 

I hope it will work in my favor. I will be adding the link to my light kit later. This is just a stupid price. I’m not stoked at all, but it looks like it’s the only way it’ll work.  It’ll be interesting to see if it actually sells. I have a bet going with myself.

Wish me luck.

Love yourself.

 

 

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J.Rounds (c)2017 ~Peaces of ME

To Karter, May 3rd, 2017.

You’d be 12 today…that’s just crazy. 

I know you are gone, but it doesn’t stop it from hurting, or from wanting you back with me.

I know it would be selfish of me to accept that; if it were offered; but if I had a chance to do it all over again I would have done things so much differently, and maybe someone would have listened to me sooner. It still haunts me…but I know we can’t go back now.

It took me a long time to realize the full scope of your journey. At the time I was just doing anything I could to hold on to you a little longer. I didn’t want you to go. I was so afraid to lose you.

I still struggle to understand why there has to be such a thing, as suffering and pain, in souls that are so pure….but I cannot make sense of it. In light of this fact, I try to find some sort of acceptance in it instead…however small.

If I don’t, I will surely give up on everyone and everything, and I believe that that would not be what you would want from me. 

You changed me, and made me a stronger and a better person. You kept me alive with the memories of you, when I was at my lowest, and wanted to give up. It’s because of you that I fight to be a better person. 

I think of you often, and I like to think I’ll see you again. 

I know you’re better now, and I only ever wanted that for you. Sometimes it is just bittersweet, I guess. 

I love you… And thank you for showing me what real love and strength really means.

I never knew it before you.

J.Rounds ©2017 ~Peaces of ME

Saturday Nights Alright for Fighting.

I’ve been doing well.

Had a little bit of a glitch today but that was more amusing at the tail- end than anything, so I can’t complain.

My Birthday is in two days and I am broke, but I’m pretty used to that, so I’ll make it work.

I intend to do something fun; I’m  not sure yet what, but it will be  memorable. Perhaps I’ll lay out under the stars and contemplate my blessings in life that I do have. I don’t know.

What I do know is that I learned a lot today about what I’m willing to give up, and for whom. Only things I fight for now are my sobriety, my mental health, and I hope some day, my kids again.

I feel happy and at peace in myself. Today was a good day.

I also know now that anyone being openly disrespectful to me, isn’t going to like me too much afterwards.

I don’t care. Don’t be disrespectful then.

All is fair in love and war. And war. Especially when the person doesn’t know you from Adam 🙂

Love yourself.

J. Rounds (C )2016 ~Peaces of Me

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