I think Dr. Phil is a pretty smart guy.
He’s hardcore. NO BS. He makes sense because he spells it out logically and directly… and has a plan to turn it around most times, that’s doable.
If you do it.
It might sound cliche’, but it’s what I’m doing right now while I’m writing this blog.
I’m trying to keep a routine, and form some sort of daily agenda that will help keep me moving forward. This will help me immensely to blog more often. I start in the late -morning, and finish it up later if it can’t be edited in the allotted time-frame….like today.
I’ve found that I thrive on structure, so although I’m not working and on SSI, I get up every day with T at 6 am, before he goes to work…and even on the weekends (Lol). I’m just used to it now, and I actually enjoy the quality time we get to spend together. It’s OUR routine.
We did that also when we were drinking on the weekends; but we don’t drink anymore, and T has a much better job and working enviroment, doing what he loves now. I need to fill my day, with steps to a better place as well, so that I can accomplish my own goals too.
I am more than ready, and have the emotional support behind me now; I am going to make it happen. I’m working on this every day.
A daily routine/schedule, that involves me scheduling the work to get there, is what I’m trying to do, and build.
I’ve got plenty of things to do, and eventually I won’t be on SSI full-time, and my plan is to get off it all together again and start living my dreams; which really just means being a positive influence in my kids lives; being a healthy partner and best friend to T; spending time on and with true friends; forming some sort of working relation with my sister’s again; making sure my mother sees all us girls together again someday and talking and sisterly like we should be (I hope); making money doing what I’m good at doing and enjoy; helping others through my story; living with a purpose, instead of just a sick existence.
I need the routine to keep me on track.
Seems like It’ll help a whole lot.
I’ve had some good, positive and hard growth these past days.
It’s been life-changing.
I really don’t know how else to put it. That just doesn’t really happen that much for me.
The peaces clicked together, and I have great hope.
I KNOW that not every day is going to be rosy and life goes in that way; it just does and this is MY story. But I’m changing all around as a person in a good way, and it makes me want to keep going.
It agrees with me.
I have so much to change still; but it will be worth it, and it will happen.
I know my kids are worth it,
I will be there for them in any way I can.
I’m going to do this in the following ways:
1. I’m going to work daily to stay healthy and sober.
2. I’m going to keep consistent contact with my 3 children, and not make plans or promises, that I know might not work out. It causes me to fail and not follow through, and cause hurt. (and then I’m afraid to contact them.) This won’t be happening anymore. I also hope I can work out a way to communicate better with my ex in the future, because I WOULD like to see them at some point, as is doable and agreeable by both parties…when things are better.
3. Positivity is what I want to remember; but I’m going to ask for help if I need it. (That means not being afraid to admit I’m upset about something and need to talk it out.
4. I’m going to work my ass off.
5. I’m not going to stop until I get to where I need to be.
6. I’m going to believe in myself and remember that life is really about the journey…not the destination….just breathe.
I figure it’s a matter of time before I see results…it’s a no- brainer if I don’t stop.
I want my life to mean something before I go.
And it will.
That’s the part of the story I can control.
I’m really happy because I feel like there’s finally hope; and when there is hope, there is always a way to build on it.
I am 99 days sober. The Fourth of July will mark 100; I’ll make sure of it. 🙂
J. Rounds ©2017 ~Peaces of ME