I am right now.
I’m also glad that I made myself the promise years ago that I would never ever take myself out of the game.
It doesn’t stop the thoughts from floating by sometimes though; “This too, shall pass”.
Facing seriously heavy stress and it’s not fun, it’s really fucking scary and I feel re-victimized by the system and I have felt that way since April 31st because I am being re-victimized.
It is a hurt that I cannot put into words.