When I started figuring out my personal boundaries I was 3 yrs old.
I found a lot of the people I liked or loved, liked me most when I had no personal boundaries.
Fast forward up to now.
It’s not really fulfilling to me to feel that desperate feeling inside anymore about what other people may or may not think about me and my life.
Have a conversation with me and you can tell that I’m a good human, besides that’s an empty way of life and I’m not like that anymore.
I don’t think people understand that.
I’m used to people judging me and I don’t think people understand that either.
I’ve been writing on this blog for five years and I am considering life and this blog and myself as well.
When I decided that I deserved to be happy and to feel safe in my OWN skin; I started to live with principle for myself for the first time in my life without feeling bad for it.
I’ve personally failed SO many times.
I still fail.
I win every day too because I know that I don’t have to be perfect, and I find away to be ok with that and keep going.
I have to make smart choices for myself and for my life and for my kids.
I also realized that a lot of people don’t like honesty and truth because it requires actually feeling feelings, and probably 13.5 percent of the time that’s true for me too, if you want to get technical.
There are things I don’t want to see or hear or do. There are things and people I avoid because I am smart and because it I understand that it will make me mentally sick.
*Edit. Then I can’t be productive.
Hello, my name is human.
Why do you think I prefer to be alone?
My animals don’t judge me for my political views or try to kill me or lie openly to me to get stuff from me when they know I also struggle.
I’m so broke right now that I think the sun isn’t coming out, but I am sitting in it so I’m grateful and warm.
Waiting for my own money basically.
Housing is helping me now and I’m grateful for that too because I’d be homeless and that’s no joke.
Working and being patient.
It’s a good day.
Have a good day friends.
J. Rounds ©2020 ~Peaces of ME