Today I feel like giving up.
I won’t lie.
My feet are literally wrecked. They are messed up. Physical pain.
I miss my children.
I miss Karter.
It’s my problem, and I’m sure others have it worse.
I know that this life is temporary.
I know that I have to be strong even though I feel weak inside.
I believe that if I keep working, I will get to where I need to be.
AGAIN I’m being ignored by housing.
I don’t know why. It’s really, really frustrating.
I’m STILL waiting on my background check for a second job.
I still have no vehicle.
I can’t get a vehicle until I get the second job.
It’s so frustrating, but I’m not willing to get myself in another messed up position with an inadequate car-loan, just to have a car.
I have to be smart about it.
I’m sad for people that are struggling worse than me, that I can’t help, because they will not help themselves.
I just wish I could sleep all day today.
I would really love some clarity this week on a lot of things.
I know I won’t get it.
Looking forward to therapy this week.
Feeling less than I should today, but glad I know that not every day has to be perfect.
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