It was definitely a long night last night, and a rough morning as well for me.
Mostly today I’ve been talking myself out my nonsense, regarding my guilt about my weaknesses, and the fact that my body is betraying me with waves of major menopause symptoms.
I have to be so totally honest when I say there couldn’t be a worse time for it.
I’ve had a pituitary tumor for 10 years now, but was only pre-menopausal.
The real menopause is definitely happening now, and there’s not one fun thing about it. I do wonder if my stress level is making it worse, but with the Covid-19 going on, there’s no way that going down for me until it’s over.
Anyways, I talked to my bestie and some other good friends who helped me feel better about it all. I also managed to get my unemployment filed, got an intriguing email about a potential writing project to help with, and the very highlight is that I had a quick chat with my eldest son.
Other than that I’m hot flashing left and right, but still healthy(ish) and sober and I didn’t lose the entire day to negative thoughts.
There’s a silver lining in everything if you look for it.
I hope you all are well and safe tonight. I appreciate every single person still going to work and getting us all through.
Have a good night.
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