They say my delivery is TOO intense most times,
and I’m like,
“This is SO not intense for me, get over yourself.” Enough said.
I’m not even angry, but I am frustrated.
It’s pretty hard to not be concerned, for me personally, when I feel like I’m in a high-risk environment for Coronavirus and truthfully haven’t been feeling 100%, for a bit.
So if I have to be around sick people today, and I get sick ish/er, then I’ll be upset.
I’m already feeling more coughy than usual and also more coldish’. Should I be honest about it, or should I suck it up and listen to everyone else?
People don’t understand my concerns and truly I don’t care because also people judge you just because you are you, and don’t listen anyways so who’s problem is it really?
I tend to care about more things than most, that’s just my makeup, but also too when I’m in an environment that is a prime ground for spreading viruses, and there are really no clear, mandated facts from my Government other than” we do not know everything (we won’t tell you anyways), BUT wash your hands and sanitize everything more than usual, work from home, don’t come back from break, no sports events, no meetings, no anything with lots of people, we are shutting down everything, stay home even though you have responsibilities to meet if you think you should, but if you don’t feel good or think you could be sick, (definitely having more sick symptoms); then definitely stay home.
There is nothing set in place to help your bills get paid, though.
Reality says I have a shift today to work.
I’ll have to work it; because there is no one else to.
Anxiety is the thing I don’t like to have. That’s why I like facts so much, and spreading them.
This is why I am frustrated in general right now. The lack of DOability.
There are no test kits for Coronavirus that I know of as of last week in this medical office that treats and diagnoses sick patients every day. I know because I asked. No one was concerned too much, honestly.
I don’t know about now.
I had a routine visit and also have to go back to get routine bloodwork before my next appointment at the end of the month; which I don’t know if I should even get done because I feel like I have been taking daytime cold medicine to mask symptoms for about a month now, and so what do I even do?
“I’m healthy.” everyone says, “so don’t worry.”
“You should be more worried about the flu” and “you’re not old, so don’t worry.”
YOU don’t worry. I’m thinking logically all day because I’m considering other people besides myself, and I also want to adult properly, and do not want to get the virus OR spread it.
The problem with society is that too many people go by it like it’s the thing to do, without thinking for themselves. Ask me how I know.
It is 9:30 am and im to go in in about 8 hours. I am struggling on whether or not to go to work, because everyone else seems to be sick and calling in, and I’m the one that has to sell you your medicine, beer, cigarettes, disinfectants, sanitizers wipes and toilet paper, and feasibly I could be sick because I am feeling worse than usual.
I have children I’d like to see but won’t because it could potentially compromise their household’s health.
No one else I work with is worried about it. People have been working sick because they have to around people that are sick and coming into the store.
I’m concerned about it, because I don’t know the level of sick I should get to, before I say F it, and stay home.
“You are just being a cry baby.”
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