I’ve waited for a long time to be able to hang out with my kids again and have messed up and missed a lot of their lives because I was sick and in stages of grief and made really bad choices.
I take full responsibility for that.
I’m grateful for people who cared enough about me, to tell me that I needed to get real with myself or I would never be well.
Never be happy.
Never know my kids.
Well equals a lot of things and is different to every individual.
For me it became more about being a positive role model to myself, so that I could be a positive in my kid’s lives and worthy of getting to know them again.
My children mean more than anything to me and I hope in the future that I can be there for them more, in any capacity they need me to be.
That’s really the best thing I can do for not being there before.
I’m excited to see my son today and that he wants to see me too.
Also that I’m managing my life today in an adult fashion.
J.Rounds ©2020 ~Peaces of ME