Happy Birthday America. I hope you will get your shit together soon; for real.
I feel like we should be celebrating the fact that the world has not exploded yet.
I don’t think I’m alone in that either….
Last year on the Fourth, I was still with T; and we were just coming off of 3 months or so, sober.
Everything is different this year. In fact, It’s sometimes hard for me to believe; just how much my life has changed since last July.
T and I are no longer together now. I have an awesome job that I love, my own car, my own apartment, a semi- normal working relationship with all three of my remaining children. I am sober; one year, three months, and eight days; today.
What’s there really, to complain about?
I’m longer compromising myself mentally; to be in a relationship that isn’t healthy.
I’m happy about that.
I have true friends that care about me and my life. I can do literally whatever I want to.
I guess I’m coming back into myself again; slowly but surely.
That’s a good feeling.
I will be 47 years old in twenty-one days too.
Next chapter is what.
I’m going to Michigan again to see my kids; and hopefully I will also be jumping out of a plane on that weekend as well.
Bucket list. A Birthday present to myself.
A tattoo cover up as well…another gift to myself that has been a long time coming.
The world keeps spinning, doesn’t it?
I’m not going to lie; it’s been super hard at points to acclimate to being alone again…and I have cried at points. I’m still pissed off that I was treated like I wasn’t worth the truth; or valued like I should have been. I am still getting over it in pieces…and won’t be getting into anymore serious relationships in the near future…at all.
I would however, like to find some people to do things with. Like jump out of a plane. 😉 Someone single; with no expectations, other than a friendship and hanging out for right now.
At the end of the day, I know I’m ok… and that fact is really what’s keeping me moving forward emotionally, at this point.
I have wonderful people in my life, that have helped me do this; and im so grateful for that fact.
This Fourth has been pretty boring this year (I’ve been cleaning and unpacking); but I’m going to the fireworks by myself anyways.
It will be nothing special. Just me spending time with me; in a group of people.
What could go wrong with that?
Wish me luck; and enjoy your Fourth.
Please do not drink and drive, or blow yourself up….seriously.
J.Rounds ©2018 ~Peaces of Me