My mood is better today.
I can’t expect to feel positive all the time, when there are real problems I’m dealing with.
I’m not afraid anymore to say when I feel like shit inside, and I guess that is one good thing.
Truth be told, I have no reason to trust anybody; or care.
I think that’s a rather fucked up and selfish way of looking at things though; so I’m again looking on the bright side….because I actually hate feeling shitty…I don’t know if any of you have realized this by now, or not. I know it may be hard at points to tell.
If I could change one thing about myself, it would be my pessimism on life in general.
I work on it daily to control it; because I know that my attitude, directly affects my whole day, and life. Lately I’ve been failing.
It is still hard to stop up the leaks in my heart; for valid reasons that will always suck.
For that, I wish there were a solid cure that worked…
Faith seems to be the only option to slow it down.
Day 142 on the sober count; keeping it real, like always.
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