Funny how you change as a person, over time.
It seems like no matter what pressures hit me lately, I’m able to compartmentalize them down into smaller, more managable sections to deal with. Sometimes it’s hard, but I DO do it. It got me to thinking that things could be a lot worse, and THAT is progress. I couldn’t do that last year at all, without having major meltdowns lasting days and weeks, and then finally realizing I was just wasting time, on doing nothing.
I am blessed for the goodness in my life today, and the life and good sense that is coming back to me.
I missed it.
There’s a lot of stuff going on for T and I, but we are moving in the right direction. On the one hand I’m terrified, and on the other, I’m ready for our future life together. It’s been challenging in many regards, for both of us.
I just think this is part of our story. Sober is not always easy. But sober together is definitely better than drunk alone, in any regard.
Taking the safe and easiest route is not always feesible, OR smart.
When all the signs are there and line up, sometimes I really wonder why we waited so long to make a break.
I think we were both scared of messing up again, and letting each other down; instead of realizing that we both control what we do as people, and those choices need to mean something or it doesn’t. We owe it to the people we love…to love them in every regard. That includes ourselves, but in a much healthier way.
I’m feeling confident that we will get there soon. I am tired as well but I know we always find the rainbows, when the clouds pull away. Our “best” is yet to come, and now we can realize it fully.
People, places, and things…
This is just part of the places part.
We are both three months, 15 days sober.
J.Rounds ~Peaces of ME