You can’t always get what you want; but if you try sometimes, you just might find…you get what you need.
I’ve been thinking a lot about life and my children, and the whole process of healing and what my future holds.
It’s hard for me to admit to myself that things are not going to go down the way I wanted them to and originally had planned.
Such is life I guess. There’s no other way to put it.
You can only move forward and continue on and do the best you can.
SUCH IS LIFE.
I have a great opportunity to be happy. I’m going to take it. Not only do I want to; but I also think it would be the best for all parties involved.
There are very many pros, and only a few cons. The biggest one being I won’t be close to my kids. I will however be able to travel back to see them on a regular basis, have a stable enviroment, a beautiful place to live in a warm state all year round. I’ll be able to get a decent job, save up money for crucial things I need to have that I haven’t for such a long time. I’ll be able to finally advance in life…not be stuck in the same place as I am now and have been, just spinning. Not forward, not back. Most importantly be healthy and happy and thrive.
The pros outweigh the cons by a mudslide.
I recently had a conversation with the father of my children, and it put into perspective that maybe I’m just wishing for something that’s never going to happen.
Things are different now. With everything.
My kids are thriving and super happy. They are doing outstanding in every area of life. To try to wedge my way back in isn’t going to work.
There are many people that have called me selfish in the past and maybe I am. I don’t see myself in this situation as being selfish. I think I’m doing what’s right and thinking of the well being of everyone, including myself, under the circumstances of the shit storm I created after I lost it.
I won’t be happy if I go back to MI. I think it would be detrimental to me in a major way. I’m not going down that road again. I also think my kids have adjusted to me being gone, and are comfortable with it. There are plenty of divorced parents that live in different states that make it work. Why not me?
That’s what’s going to happen.
In the end it will be the best thing. I’m not giving up…I’m stepping up and getting real. I love my children; and it’ll be ok.
This move will be the last move I make. I’m happy I made the choice and will stick to the plan I have because it’s a good one.
My life is starting to take off. I’m following the path to the end;
I will succeed and be happy. Just watch.
J.Rounds (c) 2016 ~Peaces of Me