I ‘ve decided as years go, this is definitely the year I have most changed; and it’s for the better.
This year has been full of pain, confusion and hopelessness.
It has also been a year of personal growth, spiritual repair, and knowledge of what I needed to do for myself to move forward in my life. I’ve learned a lot and how to finally start loving myself.
I can’t say that’s a bad thing.
I went from being everybody elses’ girl; to ME. I thought I had lost me forever. I found her hiding in the same old place she always was, and I finally boarded up that spot and built a brand new spot for her to inhabit.
It was costly and a lot of hard work. She still tries to visit the old spot sometimes because it’s familiar; but she knows the new place suits her much better.
With reminders to herself, soon her new place will become a permanent home. It’s nice there. 🙂
For what it’s worth, I poured out my soul on this blog because I wanted to be well; and I wanted the people closest to me to finally know me, flaws and all. I’ve hid for a very long time. I’m no longer doing that, and it has been worth it all.
I hope to continue on on this blog, and maybe really make a difference some day with my words; so people know that they are not alone in feeling alone, their addictions, and their mental issues that they have to struggle and deal with on a daily basis.
Never the less those are dreams for the future and as always expect nothing less than me in full, because that’s all I know how to be anymore.
Thank you to anyone that’s ever had faith in me, believed in my journey and supported me through it. I’m still on that journey. I want you to know I appreciate it very much; I really do.
I said I’d have no regrets this year and I don’t at all. 2015 has been my best year to date; I plan on continuing to move forward and doing even more next year.
Never give up trying to heal yourself or be your own best friend. Because if you do give up, no one can ever love you enough, and you will constantly be spinning in uncertainty. You don’t want to do that to yourself; trust me.
Take it from someone that’s been there for most her life.
Love yourself. You’re worth it.
J. Rounds (c)2015 ~Peaces of Me.