Grief is a bitch. People expect you to just get over things and be normal, and it just doesn’t work like that.
You have up and down days. It doesnt take much to trigger me, which is why I have a disorder.
Today I am having a bad day, and I feel weak, and really I just want to feel normal.
I wish I could get over my anger.
I’m angry because it’s painful.
Every time I think I’ve made some sort of progress, I realize I haven’t and I go right back to feeling angry again.
I just want something to make sense. All I can see is the last look he gave me.
On days like this it is hard to love myself. I am trying.
It is raining, and I’m sober.
J. Rounds ©2015 ~Peaces of Me