Just for today

Every day is a new day to TRY. That’s what I’ve realized.

Every day I try to have to decide NOT to drink alcohol.

I drink alcohol because I want to erase the pain that I carry in my soul. It has always been there as long as I can remember and will not go away no matter what I “try” to do.

I have come to accept this.

When I drink, the Jenny you know goes away and I destroy everything that is me and all those around me.

If you catch me in the wrong light I will rip off your head and tear out your heart and laugh about it without even thinking twice.

UNTIL THE NEXT DAY.

I have lost every single thing I ever held valuable to me including almost every single person I have loved as well because of it.

I STILL look myself in the eye every day because I know it is NOT ME. It is my disease.

EVERY DAY IS A NEW DAY TO TRY.
I AM WORTHY.

MY name is Jenny, and I am an alcoholic/addict.

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