Every day is a new day to TRY. That’s what I’ve realized.
Every day I try to have to decide NOT to drink alcohol.
I drink alcohol because I want to erase the pain that I carry in my soul. It has always been there as long as I can remember and will not go away no matter what I “try” to do.
I have come to accept this.
When I drink, the Jenny you know goes away and I destroy everything that is me and all those around me.
If you catch me in the wrong light I will rip off your head and tear out your heart and laugh about it without even thinking twice.
UNTIL THE NEXT DAY.
I have lost every single thing I ever held valuable to me including almost every single person I have loved as well because of it.
I STILL look myself in the eye every day because I know it is NOT ME. It is my disease.
EVERY DAY IS A NEW DAY TO TRY.
I AM WORTHY.
MY name is Jenny, and I am an alcoholic/addict.