I don’t handle emotional pain well. I do stupid stuff and tell myself stupid things. Today I am struggling to love myself. I know there is a reason for me to be in this world. I hope I can get through all of these things that are weighing me down in my head, because I need to find it.
I am becoming more and more anti-social by the day because I’m afraid of being hurt and I’m suffering. I can’t remember a time ever in my life that I felt like things made sense.
I hate this part of me so much. I’m just trying to keep it together for right now, and not complain too much.
I had to change therapists because Angel was done with her residency there. AGAIN I have to start over with someone new and I don’t get to see her until the 27th.
I’m trying really hard to remain positive because if I don’t I am going to be worse. I’m only writing this because I can’t keep the thoughts in my head anymore.
Stay positive and don’t give up! You are worth being in this world; even if you feel like the whole world is against you, and you’re a complete zero.
It’s not true. Try harder Jen. You’re O.K.
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